She's Addicted To The Feeling

That feeling.....

That relief........

She can feel what it is, but where are the words?

A shock? A buzz?

These words all seem so simple, TOO simple!

This feeling is more than that, it's a state of what life can be, of what life is all about.

She had this feeling already, countless times....

But with every countless time, it disappeared with just that......TIME!

You see, this feeling came from things that she never understood,

Things that were MADE too valuable even beyond their value.

But who made it valuable? 

You? her?..ALL OF US, so it's no surprise these things came with a price.

Money here, money there, her money, her parent's money....

She didn't care, she just wanted that feeling again....and again.

You see, society told her that was the price for the feeling she craved, 

So she paid for it!

She became addicted to the feeling, 

That feeling....just thinking of it gave her a spark, the excitement gave her goosebumps.

Her body responding to her thoughts, 

Hungry for more, craving for more.

What the mind wants, the body wants....

At least that's what she told herself.

"Everything comes at a price", and she was willing to pay for it.

She never realized what she was getting herself into, 

She only knew what she wanted to get out of whatever this was.

Ignorant to this experience, 

Arrogance began to grow in her.

She was spending and spending, but for what?

She got what she want, she used it, she got the feeling.....BUT

Of course there's a 'but'...

BUT the feeling she spent her money for, that feeling that she continuously craved fades after she uses.

Frustration builds....

Anger grows.

She doesn't always have the money to pay for the feeling she craves,

So FUCK YOU and YOU if you think you can just tell her she doesn't need it!

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Now,........ you may think that she was stupid,

But how can you blame her if she grew into a world where this is what she exposed to?

It's around her, she sees it everyday, she hears it everyday....

The voices never stop, they just get louder!

"BUY ME", "BUY ME"....."YOU NEED ME", "I'LL GIVE YOU THE BEST FEELING" 

The voice of society,

Misleading her,

Casting a shadow on all traces of natural urges, the natural feeling,
Shedding light on a fabricated feeling....
The feeling that comes at a price!

But she grew up.....
She realized....late, but not too late!

She eventually reached a point in her life where she realized that despite those voices being loud,

The voices of her family & friends were always louder....

She just wasn't listening!

She's been chasing a feeling she craved so dearly, quenching it with a temporary solution, 

Clouding her mind, her better judgment, brainwashed by MATERIAL! 

She didn't need the most expensive shoes, more clothes than her closet can store, new this, new that...!!!

But she was addicted to the hype!

She's clean now, 

She can see clear now......

Because she was blinded before, 

NOT only by what was being fed to her, 

But also blind to what was always in front of her.....THE PERMANENT FEELING!

That feeling of being loved, the feeling of being appreciated, the feeling of knowing everything is okay.....

That feeling, the feeling that sends blood racing through every vein in her body,

That feeling, the feeling that controls every muscle in her body and relaxes is, 

That feeling, the feeling that curves her mouth upwards...that puts a smile on her face,

That feeling of HAPPINESS!

She thought what money paid for was happiness, but this.....this is it.

It was always there in front of her, she just had to reach out and grab it,

FREE, GENUINE,  FULFILLING and lasts a lifetime!!

"Happiness that you buy lasts as long as what you paid for, but happiness from the love shared by friends and family will last forever".

Material stuff only have as much worth as you give them, don't believe the hype.